Wednesday, April 23, 2008

"Our Family" by Ella Anderson


Zane, Daddy holding baby Sully, Mommy and Ella wearing crowns
April, 2008

5 comments:

Mish said...

I have read your blog post by post, taking in your words, holding them close to my heart. I have cried real tears and had real smiles. My heart has ached and broke for you and your family. I need to let you know that I feel that I KNOW Sully thanks to you and your beautiful tribute to your son. Sully has touched my heart, Sully has made me stop and think, this dear sweet little boy has made me a better person. Thank you for Sully, and thank you for sharing him with us. Your son really is one of Gods miracles.

Blessings to you and your family. I will continue to read

GodisGreat said...

"Consider it pure joy, my brothers, whenever you face trials of many kinds, because you know that the testing of your faith develops perseverance."

Um, did God just say joy? Sure...whatever. Several years ago, I was going through a really rough time. In fact, I would call it one of the darkest moments of my life so far. There definitely was not joy, only intense anger, heartache, a lot of bitterness, and an overwhelming sense of betrayal. Looking back, I see the hand of God so clearly guiding me through it, but to this day I've been searching for the reason and the purpose of it all besides simply "testing my faith." I've given up my bitterness and anger, and I've found and extended true forgiveness, but I still kept asking God "Why me? Haven't I served you faithfully all my life?" I never got a definitive answer, so I just let the questions go assuming they would go unanswered forever.

Today, I had a student come in and bare his soul and share his heartache. God in His great wisdom not only gave me the answers I was looking for, but gave me a chance to share what I'd learned through my struggle with this student who is going through the exact same thing. After he left, I was SO humbled by the awesomeness of the wisdom and the grace of God that all I could do was sit there and cry tears of thanksgiving. It was like God reached down from heaven, placed that student in my room, and said "Beloved, here's your answer." Now I truly understand that the only reason I went through an experience that seemed so terrible at the time was to share it with him. If that's the only purpose for my heartache, I can say it truly was worth it.

Praise God, because ALL things really do work "for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose."

smalltownknitter said...

Hi Heidi,

We have been thinking of you and your family. :o) I am so sorry that we were unable to attend the ceremony officially opening Sully's playground. I saw the photos and it looks as if it were a magical day and celebration. The kids sure seemed to enjoy it! Our Ellie woke up in the middle of the night, sick, so we kept her home, but we have visited the playground many times, and it truly is one of my children's dearest places in Norfolk. It's lovely - what a gift Sully gave to so many children! We keep your Sully and family in our thoughts and prayers. Hope all is well. The Zysmans

Jordan said...

I really miss reading your comments!

Yvette said...

I visited your site often in February, and believe I even commented, but just found your site again on Facebook through the Trisomy 18 group - what a touching video, I had tears.

We also had a little boy named Tristan Asher with Trisomy 18. He was born on December 3, 2007 and passed away on January 27, he lived 56 days. We were in the hardest days of grieving when I found your blog and it was so encouraging to read of another precious little boy that was living with Trisomy 18 and how you loved him and celebrated his life. I think the playground a wonderful way to keep Sully's memory alive, we are in the process of creating a foundation in memory of Tristan.

I would like to add your blog link to mine. I have become very good friends with a lot of sweet christian girls (over Internet) and we have walked this road together. I think that it is imperative that we use our stories of life/celebration of our precious babies to encourage other girls that will eventually walk this same road.

I am thinking of you today and praying for your family as I have so often since February.

Sincerely, Yvette
www.tristanasher.blogspot.com